You need to step into it, but there is still a tendency to foot dragging. You know what has to be done but you can’t quite get there. You are frustrated with ruminating about it but this feeling of indecision will probably last for another 3 months or so. Try to go easy on yourself as this is a process that has it’s own time table. You have to be patient.
We learn through repetition and in life situations will continually repeat themselves until we discover how to effectively deal with them. Once we find the solution, we can move on to the next phase of development. This just seems to be in the nature of things. It’s not some omnipotent authority designing problems for us to solve. It’s just in the nature of things.
We spend most of our waking hours working on problems of one form or another. This happens unconsciously as well as consciously. So even when you don’t think you are doing something, you are. We are constantly evolving toward our higher self. Not just those people who would like to evolve but those who could care less. It’s happening at every moment in life to everyone.
We cross paths with many people and places and things all for the sake of evolution. It’s that thing that you cannot prevent from happening. You are evolving toward your higher self, like it or not. Remember that the most peaceful path is the least wearing. You can be peaceful without losing your identity. You can be yourself without harming others. You can express your values without regret. You just have to be patient.