Procrastination has become a way of life. Did you ever have to make up your mind? Making a choice is pain staking at this point in time. You must choose even if you are not inclined to do so. Remember that every advantage has a disadvantage so choice is really a trade off of sorts. You pay for what you want and you pay for what you don’t want.
Sometimes you have to be a chess player. You move up in rank and file. Some advancement is necessary. It’s a double game. Life is also a double game. There is the practical side and the spiritual side of it. You are trying to balance them. You will find yourself at one extreme or another until you find the middle ground.
You don’t feel up to the task that is ahead of you but you will see that you have lots of energy in the coming months that will allow you to get things up and running. Go slowly and you will arrive sooner.
Organize your thoughts and actions. Put them into play. Take up a new sport or hobby that will allow you to enjoy your spare time. Don’t worry, be happy.